Prayer 7-21-22

 Lord I'm not sure what's going on - I feel so angry and frustrated. Lord I don't like telling people no and then being not satisfied with me. I don't like that things were missing and I was part of it. I don't like that I made an insensitive joke. I don't like that woodhull didn't let me do back ups at first. I don't like that I'm not able to focus. I don't like telling J and J and D what I really think of the book club. 

Lord you are the one who gives me the desire and power to do what pleases you. Will you please help me to trust you with the envelopes and the labels and the awkward feeling. Lord I'm mad. I'm not even sure why. I don't feel respected - Really I feel like he is disappointed in me - I'm sorry for making this about me. Lord help me to be humble and to care about others. Lord I bless Kory - I ask that you would help him in these challenges and help me not to take responsibility where I shouldn't. I give it to you - I give you the missing paperwork, I give you the hard book club convos. I give you the anger at Woodhull. Lord I release this pressure to  you. Please I ask that you would give me the Love I need for my coworkers. Please help me to really love them enough to tell them the truth. God help me to share the gospel with Jenny. I need your love to be more than me being uncomfortable. God I need you - i need your help. Please deliver me from fear. I ask for your help with doing the client scans and the confirmation calls. and the postcard email to advisors. I need focus and help to get it all done. Will you please help me to trust you Lord? I need your help! I forgive Natasha - I'm sorry for talking about her this morning and bringing it back up. I'm sorry. Please help me to forgive and let it go. I give it to you Lord - I won't bring it up again. 

"that is the first real prayer you've prayed in awhile"

Gal 5:24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.

Talking to God 7-20-22

 Lord I think I'm angry bc I don't get to take my walks today - I'm repent for getting angry - I submit to you. I'm sorry - will you forgive me for fighting you and not accepting this and accusing others. I receive this from your hand. Please help me to learn how to abide in you not just while walking but every min of every day. Please help me to commune with you during my time. Lord will you help me? Will you forgive me? 

"yes daughter, none of this has to be your death if you trust me with it. I will help you"

Thank you Father, this is good for me, I trust you with this difficulty. I give you my desire to walk and my fears of not connecting with you and getting fat for not excercising and blaming others for my difficulty. I'm sorry for wanting to manipulate to get out of this. I submit it to you. Will you please comfort me and help me Lord?

Thank you for all the times I have gotten to take walks

Thank you for your forgiveness - I don't deserve it

Thank you that you are worthy of my obedience and my trust

Thank you for your love

Thank you for my volleyball team

Thank you for the opp to go to bed earlier and start a new habit

Prayer 7-18-22

 Lord so this is first official day of no walks - it's so nice outside too - Will you help me to be content in you and serving our team in this way? Also will you help me with Seth today if/when he apologizes? I need your grace to be humble and gracious. Lord will you help me to not be distracted with desires for comfort in snacks or distraction in email. Lord I need your help with filing the client scans, QB scans, the bday posters for Shelly and Jodi - and doing some of the things I do on Tuesday today (snacks, Social contract quotes) - Will you help my thoughts to be good and pleasing and not fleshly? I need your help today to trust you - especially with the aldi groceries too - Lord will you help me? 

Thank you for your help with the shuffleboard tournament and with not taking walks. Thank you for the peace that I feel. Thank you for the salad for lunch and the warm mashed potatoes. Also thank you for this Hidden smile book that is helping shape how I view suffering. Thank you for the time yesterday to clean my apartment - it really needed it! AND to read the rest of the Happiest people book - oh how that touched my heart that you spoke to Rose just when the lady was hopeless. You are so good. Thank you for your goodness. You know what we need when we need it. Lord will you help me to pray? to pray according to your will - and to really have faith?

7/13/22

 Lord help me to talk to you today

7-5-22

 Lord I need you! Please will you free me from the grip of control of finances and my life. I'm scared to spend money on groceries - I need your help Lord to trust you.