Humble yourself 6-8-22

 Lord please help me to humble myself today 

listened to Brokenness - Nancy Demoss audiobook

I need you desperately. Please help me not to run to snacks or my own thoughts for help. Lord I need you. I'm empty - and lonely right now. I need you. Lord I'm so tempted to sulk and be stuck inside myself, and feel sorry for myself and be miserable in my back pain. Lord Help me! Lord I confess my self pity pride and desire for pity. Lord I'm sorry please help me to resist the pain and to ACT in love. Lord please help me with my back pain, it hurts so bad. Lord I give it to you, please help me to pray for others. I give you my acid reflux - please help me to be able to breathe - I need your perseverance in this. Lord please deliver me!!!!!! Deliver me from the throat swallowing pain, discomfort and anxiety. Deliver me from back pain. Do surgery on my heart full of pride and deceit and help me to receive your love. I can't do this Lord! Please help me

1:27pm

Thank you so much for helping my back and healing it so significantly. Thank you for helping me to be humble and ask for help from Tricia for her heating pad and for helping me obey and do what my boss asked with rotating the chocolate and the rug. Thank you for giving me QB scans to do and helping me process the question from B2B. Thank you that paper towels are on sale at Kroger! Lord will you show me if you want me to get items for people for their bdays? Also what should I get my brother for Sunday?

"Write them cards, doesn't have to be fancy. (3x5 cards?)

Ring pops for Katie

Sweedish fish Ryan

Use your gift of encouragement to encourage the body"

What about trying to give anonymously?

"You don't have to - it's not from you"

34The Lord mocks the mockers

but is gracious to the humble.

Proverbs 3

Trusting in the Lord

1My child,3:1 Hebrew My son; also in 3:11, 21. never forget the things I have taught you.

Store my commands in your heart.

2If you do this, you will live many years,

and your life will be satisfying.

3Never let loyalty and kindness leave you!

Tie them around your neck as a reminder.

Write them deep within your heart.

4Then you will find favor with both God and people,

and you will earn a good reputation.

5Trust in the Lord with all your heart;

do not depend on your own understanding.

6Seek his will in all you do,

and he will show you which path to take.

7Don’t be impressed with your own wisdom.

Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil.

8Then you will have healing for your body

and strength for your bones.

9Honor the Lord with your wealth

and with the best part of everything you produce.

10Then he will fill your barns with grain,

and your vats will overflow with good wine.

11My child, don’t reject the Lord’s discipline,

and don’t be upset when he corrects you.

12For the Lord corrects those he loves,

just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.3:12 Greek version reads loves, / and he punishes those he accepts as his children. Compare Heb 12:6.

13Joyful is the person who finds wisdom,

the one who gains understanding.

14For wisdom is more profitable than silver,

and her wages are better than gold.

15Wisdom is more precious than rubies;

nothing you desire can compare with her.

16She offers you long life in her right hand,

and riches and honor in her left.

17She will guide you down delightful paths;

all her ways are satisfying.

18Wisdom is a tree of life to those who embrace her;

happy are those who hold her tightly.

19By wisdom the Lord founded the earth;

by understanding he created the heavens.

20By his knowledge the deep fountains of the earth burst forth,

and the dew settles beneath the night sky.

21My child, don’t lose sight of common sense and discernment.

Hang on to them,

22for they will refresh your soul.

They are like jewels on a necklace.

23They keep you safe on your way,

and your feet will not stumble.

24You can go to bed without fear;

you will lie down and sleep soundly.

25You need not be afraid of sudden disaster

or the destruction that comes upon the wicked,

26for the Lord is your security.

He will keep your foot from being caught in a trap.

27Do not withhold good from those who deserve it

when it’s in your power to help them.

28If you can help your neighbor now, don’t say,

“Come back tomorrow, and then I’ll help you.”

29Don’t plot harm against your neighbor,

for those who live nearby trust you.

30Don’t pick a fight without reason,

when no one has done you harm.

31Don’t envy violent people

or copy their ways.

32Such wicked people are detestable to the Lord,

but he offers his friendship to the godly.

33The Lord curses the house of the wicked,

but he blesses the home of the upright.

34The Lord mocks the mockers

but is gracious to the humble.3:34 Greek version reads The Lord opposes the proud / but gives grace to the humble. Compare Jas 4:6; 1 Pet 5:5.

35The wise inherit honor,

but fools are put to shame!

Psalm 91

1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust.”

3 Surely he will save you
    from the fowler’s snare
    and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
    and under his wings you will find refuge;
    his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
    nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
    nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
    ten thousand at your right hand,
    but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
    and see the punishment of the wicked.

9 If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
    and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
    no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
    to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
    so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
    you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
    I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
    I will be with him in trouble,
    I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
    and show him my salvation.”

He said..

6-7-22

My emotions towards you don't change

My love doesn't change Kristina

I made her too

I take it personally when you down those I make to elevate yourself 

https://youtu.be/OOgYfz-q9lw

11:30 - manual for living - here is the assignment - let's get to work - many ppl have these NDE's now what do we do with them? The work of love - of shining that divine light on a day to day basis - how would you describe that we do that - Many ways - simple as smiling at someone - We all want to do God's work in great ways - big ways - we all want to be at the Mt top - that is all face and ego - I don't want to be washing dishes I want to be on the mt top - doing something great - but we forget that to get to the mt top first we need to get in the car and drive to the foot of the mt - and then take a step and another step - and that may not be where you are called to be - if we were all at the top of the mountain how would all the rest of the world work? If you do the ordinary things and do them in the valley - and you do them with LOVE.. you bring the mountain top HERE. I believe we can each reflect that love no matter where we are no matter what we are doing in every situation. Actually have compassion - get up and help them - it can be so simple - not just a feeling or sentiment. How will you respond to it? Jesus looked like BOTTOMLESS KINDNESS & COMPASSION. 

We are loved beyond our wildest comprehension and if we could truly accept that - and we can't accept it bc of ourselves not bc of God - it's fully offered everyday in everyway and we are the who say - no you could never love me bc of _________ fill in the blank. But if we could actually accept how loved we are - the world would be a very different place. If we could just accept the understanding of grace. We all are a product of our past - we all miss the mark and that's the way it is - UNDERSTANDING - when you understand what brings a person to a moment in time when they hurt someone else, miss the mark - then it's grace - replaces your sense of hurt or anger - it just disappeared - replaced with kindness, compassion and understanding / acceptance - you're a loved being - yeah okay you blew it and that's okay. God knows me and at every given moment he understands - not anger but tenderness - let me help you try again.  Story - neighbor boy molesting her - when I really understood him - I felt nothing but compassion - it was like that with every circumstance - even when I hurt someone - there was no regret - I felt compassion - where God's love was present there was no room for destructive emotion - it just doesn't exist - we are 100% percent healed. Those relationships are entirely reconciled with understanding

Given up the need to always know the answer to the question WHY - I don't need to know the answer - beauty comes from all things - I know that God's promises are true - I don't need to know

Joy and Prayer

 Joy and Prayer

Lord help me to communicate with you - To live the way of life that involves constantly open communication with you - Help me to live a life of prayer - constantly offering silent prayers with every breath I take - always listening for your leading.

I believe you want me to wipe my schedule and spend time with you - Lord I want to experience and know you more and the real reality of who  you are!!! Please help me. I repent of believing that spending time with you makes me a loser to not have plans. Lord change my perspective completely. Give me your heart for you and for the church and for the world - Help me to not waste this time but to use it to soak in you and spend hours with you and to love you and to be met by you. Lord help me - help me help me. 

What do you want me to think about this time? Instead of being a loser - what is your perspective? Help me to listen and hear your voice.

"I want to spend every second with you Kristina - you are worth my time. I see you not as the world sees you - for what you can offer but I see what you ARE. I love YOU, my daughter - my devoted one - my precious gem. I want you to spend time with me to get to know ME - to know my many and precious thoughts about you and to be filled with my presence. When you get to know ME the ministry will come. I want to fill you with Me."

Thank you

 Thank you Lord for giving me grace to overcome accusation and bringing peace to my mind

Thank you for showing me my offense towards you and others and helping me to repent by humbling myself

Thank you for your help and for helping me

Lord please turn my thoughts into prayers for my friends and for thankful praise to you for what you want to do in their lives

Lord help me

excerpt from Imagine Heaven Devo book - #11

Okay, in this very moment, am I following the plant that God would have for me? Because God's plans for us are always greater than we can imagine...We need to be about God's business every moment of every day.  - If you accept that there is life after death - it changes the way you see today. Because all of a sudden - every day matters - every moment matters - every choice - every decision - it matters. We think about our lifetime as so long but in reality it's a blink of time. And the reality is that we are here for a reason. We are here to grow and change and help others do the same. And we don't have much time to do it. There is no doubt that the ONLY THINK that truly matters is loving God and being a window through which God's light can shine through this world and loving each other. 

GOD has us uniquely here for a purpose - and love is what it is about, no matter what else we accomplish. and Jesus says in Matt 22 that the two most important commandments Love GOD and LOVE people - sum up the rest. Loving GOD and letting his love shine through us to love others is central to our purpose.

As you seek and respond to God's guidance in the decisions you make, you align yourself to the plan he has for your life. God cares about who he created you to become. It brings him delight when he sees you living out your full potential and participating in his work in the world. As Paul wrote in Ephesians 2:10 ' " He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing. 

Today be aware of the people you pass and the situations God puts before you. You'll see how he will lead you into meaningful and loving interaction with them, participating in his grand purpose and plan to make a difference in the world through you.

Lord help me each day to fulfill what you have placed me on earth to do. May my life be characterized by love for you and love for others wherever I live and through whatever I do. 

Jesus help me

6/7/22

Jesus, I ask for your help today, please deliver me from the temptation to accuse and be bitter against my family/friends. I ask for your grace and help to believe that LOVE ALWAYS TRUSTS. Lord I repent for trusting my emotions and thoughts over your Word. I repent for holding offense against others Lord I forgive her for not responding, I forgive them for not keeping their word, I forgive her for her mistake and taking it, I forgive her for turning around and not coming, I repent for believing accusations that they are ignoring me on purpose to hurt me. The truth is if they are disassociating with me it is for my repentance and so I feel ashamed of my sin so I can come back in repentance - not rejection. REDIRECTION IS NOT REJECTION. Lord I ask for your mercy on my mind. Please help me to trust you and to trust my sisters. Thank you that you discipline is love. Thank you that you want to make me like you. Lord thank you for this difficulty in my mind that gives me an opp to turn to you in dependence.  Lord help me to fight these lies - please help me to HUMBLE MYSELF. Please deliver me. 

Thankful 6-6-22

 Thank you for your conviction to surrender all - Lord help me today to do just that - all my time and money and resources for your kingdom and for you.

Lord please show me how to use the $300 for someone who needs it

Lord please help me to step out in faith to thank people who have loved me

Help me to strategize how to encourage the body - give me ideas and help me to act on it

Lord I need your help to love and pray for my sisters and not hate them

Lord I give you my selfishness - you are worthy of my entire life

Please Lord take it - show me how to make room in my heart for more of your Spirit

Lord please help me to surrender all / Lord please show me how I can do this - I'm sorry for being anxious about it, please help me to be willing to be willing to surrender all

Lord I need you today! Please fill my mind with your peace and help me to be thankful for the relationships that you have given me and to pray for them

Words from the Lord 5-31-22

 Don't put me in a box, Kristina

I want to talk to you

I love you

I want to lead you out of this prison of fear

I want you to love, Kristina

Not to get things done

I didn't create you to be a machine

Spending time with me takes work

Just like any relationship

It is what you put into it

I have loved you from the start

I deserve your worship

I deserve your promise

Your adoration and awe

I didn't create your face to be covered with shame - but my glory

I am doing a marvelous work in you

I am on your side

I know what you need.