He said..

6-7-22

My emotions towards you don't change

My love doesn't change Kristina

I made her too

I take it personally when you down those I make to elevate yourself 

https://youtu.be/OOgYfz-q9lw

11:30 - manual for living - here is the assignment - let's get to work - many ppl have these NDE's now what do we do with them? The work of love - of shining that divine light on a day to day basis - how would you describe that we do that - Many ways - simple as smiling at someone - We all want to do God's work in great ways - big ways - we all want to be at the Mt top - that is all face and ego - I don't want to be washing dishes I want to be on the mt top - doing something great - but we forget that to get to the mt top first we need to get in the car and drive to the foot of the mt - and then take a step and another step - and that may not be where you are called to be - if we were all at the top of the mountain how would all the rest of the world work? If you do the ordinary things and do them in the valley - and you do them with LOVE.. you bring the mountain top HERE. I believe we can each reflect that love no matter where we are no matter what we are doing in every situation. Actually have compassion - get up and help them - it can be so simple - not just a feeling or sentiment. How will you respond to it? Jesus looked like BOTTOMLESS KINDNESS & COMPASSION. 

We are loved beyond our wildest comprehension and if we could truly accept that - and we can't accept it bc of ourselves not bc of God - it's fully offered everyday in everyway and we are the who say - no you could never love me bc of _________ fill in the blank. But if we could actually accept how loved we are - the world would be a very different place. If we could just accept the understanding of grace. We all are a product of our past - we all miss the mark and that's the way it is - UNDERSTANDING - when you understand what brings a person to a moment in time when they hurt someone else, miss the mark - then it's grace - replaces your sense of hurt or anger - it just disappeared - replaced with kindness, compassion and understanding / acceptance - you're a loved being - yeah okay you blew it and that's okay. God knows me and at every given moment he understands - not anger but tenderness - let me help you try again.  Story - neighbor boy molesting her - when I really understood him - I felt nothing but compassion - it was like that with every circumstance - even when I hurt someone - there was no regret - I felt compassion - where God's love was present there was no room for destructive emotion - it just doesn't exist - we are 100% percent healed. Those relationships are entirely reconciled with understanding

Given up the need to always know the answer to the question WHY - I don't need to know the answer - beauty comes from all things - I know that God's promises are true - I don't need to know

Joy and Prayer

 Joy and Prayer

Lord help me to communicate with you - To live the way of life that involves constantly open communication with you - Help me to live a life of prayer - constantly offering silent prayers with every breath I take - always listening for your leading.

I believe you want me to wipe my schedule and spend time with you - Lord I want to experience and know you more and the real reality of who  you are!!! Please help me. I repent of believing that spending time with you makes me a loser to not have plans. Lord change my perspective completely. Give me your heart for you and for the church and for the world - Help me to not waste this time but to use it to soak in you and spend hours with you and to love you and to be met by you. Lord help me - help me help me. 

What do you want me to think about this time? Instead of being a loser - what is your perspective? Help me to listen and hear your voice.

"I want to spend every second with you Kristina - you are worth my time. I see you not as the world sees you - for what you can offer but I see what you ARE. I love YOU, my daughter - my devoted one - my precious gem. I want you to spend time with me to get to know ME - to know my many and precious thoughts about you and to be filled with my presence. When you get to know ME the ministry will come. I want to fill you with Me."

Thank you

 Thank you Lord for giving me grace to overcome accusation and bringing peace to my mind

Thank you for showing me my offense towards you and others and helping me to repent by humbling myself

Thank you for your help and for helping me

Lord please turn my thoughts into prayers for my friends and for thankful praise to you for what you want to do in their lives

Lord help me

excerpt from Imagine Heaven Devo book - #11

Okay, in this very moment, am I following the plant that God would have for me? Because God's plans for us are always greater than we can imagine...We need to be about God's business every moment of every day.  - If you accept that there is life after death - it changes the way you see today. Because all of a sudden - every day matters - every moment matters - every choice - every decision - it matters. We think about our lifetime as so long but in reality it's a blink of time. And the reality is that we are here for a reason. We are here to grow and change and help others do the same. And we don't have much time to do it. There is no doubt that the ONLY THINK that truly matters is loving God and being a window through which God's light can shine through this world and loving each other. 

GOD has us uniquely here for a purpose - and love is what it is about, no matter what else we accomplish. and Jesus says in Matt 22 that the two most important commandments Love GOD and LOVE people - sum up the rest. Loving GOD and letting his love shine through us to love others is central to our purpose.

As you seek and respond to God's guidance in the decisions you make, you align yourself to the plan he has for your life. God cares about who he created you to become. It brings him delight when he sees you living out your full potential and participating in his work in the world. As Paul wrote in Ephesians 2:10 ' " He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing. 

Today be aware of the people you pass and the situations God puts before you. You'll see how he will lead you into meaningful and loving interaction with them, participating in his grand purpose and plan to make a difference in the world through you.

Lord help me each day to fulfill what you have placed me on earth to do. May my life be characterized by love for you and love for others wherever I live and through whatever I do. 

Jesus help me

6/7/22

Jesus, I ask for your help today, please deliver me from the temptation to accuse and be bitter against my family/friends. I ask for your grace and help to believe that LOVE ALWAYS TRUSTS. Lord I repent for trusting my emotions and thoughts over your Word. I repent for holding offense against others Lord I forgive her for not responding, I forgive them for not keeping their word, I forgive her for her mistake and taking it, I forgive her for turning around and not coming, I repent for believing accusations that they are ignoring me on purpose to hurt me. The truth is if they are disassociating with me it is for my repentance and so I feel ashamed of my sin so I can come back in repentance - not rejection. REDIRECTION IS NOT REJECTION. Lord I ask for your mercy on my mind. Please help me to trust you and to trust my sisters. Thank you that you discipline is love. Thank you that you want to make me like you. Lord thank you for this difficulty in my mind that gives me an opp to turn to you in dependence.  Lord help me to fight these lies - please help me to HUMBLE MYSELF. Please deliver me. 

Thankful 6-6-22

 Thank you for your conviction to surrender all - Lord help me today to do just that - all my time and money and resources for your kingdom and for you.

Lord please show me how to use the $300 for someone who needs it

Lord please help me to step out in faith to thank people who have loved me

Help me to strategize how to encourage the body - give me ideas and help me to act on it

Lord I need your help to love and pray for my sisters and not hate them

Lord I give you my selfishness - you are worthy of my entire life

Please Lord take it - show me how to make room in my heart for more of your Spirit

Lord please help me to surrender all / Lord please show me how I can do this - I'm sorry for being anxious about it, please help me to be willing to be willing to surrender all

Lord I need you today! Please fill my mind with your peace and help me to be thankful for the relationships that you have given me and to pray for them

Words from the Lord 5-31-22

 Don't put me in a box, Kristina

I want to talk to you

I love you

I want to lead you out of this prison of fear

I want you to love, Kristina

Not to get things done

I didn't create you to be a machine

Spending time with me takes work

Just like any relationship

It is what you put into it

I have loved you from the start

I deserve your worship

I deserve your promise

Your adoration and awe

I didn't create your face to be covered with shame - but my glory

I am doing a marvelous work in you

I am on your side

I know what you need.

Thankful 5-26-22

 Thank you Lord for the peace in my heart - for these boundaries that are good for me

THank you for helping me give up the schedule and ordering the paper one and directing me which one to purchase

thank you for Cyndi being willing to cover me for the photo class

thank you for the yummy shake for bfast and the hotdog for lunch

thank you for teaching me the big picture - things that will last - and other things will fade away

Thank you for telling me that I don't need to be someone else

Thank you for meeting with me this morning and speaking comfort to me and helping me in 1 Peter (craving pure spiritual milk to grow up in salvation) and in Ephesians 4 (maturity- each part does it's work and the Lord is the head)

Lord thank you for reminding me that this is about learning to love my sisters at the Abigail - godly sorrow to change and be humble, thankful and loving (in prayer, thoughts, affections towards them like in 2 Cor of the believers towards Paul)...... not worldly sorrow to get stuck in how bad we are and self pity about the consequences and restitution 

Thank you for helping me to go through my clothes yesterday and for helping me get rid of some of them

Thank you for helping me submit to you with schedule/plans and calendar