1. yes, I am afraid of messing up. Especially at work and in relationship with Jess. I'm afraid to make a move thinking it will be wrong or not worth it...so I stay frozen. Lord please help me to move. Lord let your love compel and control me. I need your help to choose to love. It seems too big and too scary but it's one step at a time. Help me to take the step you desire for me to take today. Help me to listen to you tonight. Please take my  actions and my thoughts.

2.What am I trying to prove Lord? That I would be a good wife? I can't do it apart from you. You are the only thing that is good in me. Why am I trying to earn it? By being beautiful, godly, good at wifey things. Lord I surrender. Please create a heart in me that longs for only you and desires to serve you at the basic level. I give you my dreams of graphic design/photo/fame/position/power/marriage/ambition/travel.

Please let my ambition be for you and you alone.


2 Cor 5:9-10
Therefore we also have as our ambition, whether at home or absent, to be pleasing to Him.

For all of us must appear before the judgment seat of the Messiah, so that each of us may receive what he deserves for what he has done in his body, whether good or worthless. 

2 Cor 5:14
Christ's love controls us. Since we believe that Christ died for all, we also believe that we have all died to our old life.