Thursday, June 30, 2022

Open the Eyes

 What is the fruit of what you are doing?

The fruit of dwelling on past wrongs? 

No, the fruit of the actions towards your sisters.

Self preserving, hiding, anger, pride, self pity, deception, living in the dark, misery, alone

Do you think this is what I want for you?

No, but how do I get out of it?

Learning to love - love no matter how you are treated or you are perceiving. It's always the answer. It hurts to give but it's never worthless in my sight. I see every action. I want you to see others the way I see them. It's the "SAFE" way out you are seeking. To fully dive in.

Lord I see I can't fight rejection with rejection and hate with hate. Lord will you please help me to love and to forgive those who offend me. Will you please help me to be humble and not conceited so I don't get offended so easily. Will you help me to love and think about you and others more than how things are affecting me? Will you please help me to forget myself - the FREEDOM to not have to tend my own ego and to really love others? Lord I want to be able to truly love - will you deliver me and help me to do this?

"pray for your mom"

Lord please have mercy on my mom - Show her the worth you have placed on her bc of Jesus' blood and help her to be humble to receive your help and care. Please deliver her from the evil one. Please help her to receive your love and help. Please fill her with faith to ask you for help and deliver her from the evil one. Please help her to trust you with everything and help her to be okay with being wrong. Lord please bless her today - help her to receive your love for her and your care. Lord deliver her from this oppression and fear and help her to cling to you and your love. Please fill her up with your HOLY SPIRIT. Help her Lord, help her! 

"It pleases me when you pray for your friends" "I made you to be someone who prays" "That is what you should be known for" "I want you to be a woman of prayer and thanksgiving" I want you to change your attitude towards your sisters. The only way to do that is to pray for them. I give you your thoughts that way and not the other way around. Your thoughts about things only matter if they are true. I want to open up my thoughts to you, Kristina"


20 Out in the open wisdom calls aloud,
    she raises her voice in the public square;
21 on top of the wall she cries out,
    at the city gate she makes her speech:

22 “How long will you who are simple love your simple ways?
    How long will mockers delight in mockery
    and fools hate knowledge?
23 Repent at my rebuke!
    Then I will pour out my thoughts to you,
    I will make known to you my teachings.

Lord I want to think like you do about people rather than how I think. My mind is a scary place full of judgement, unmerciful, fear and murder. Cleanse me Lord! Help me to think with a PURE mind and a PURE heart. 

The pure in heart are centered on something singular, that is God. How Can We See God? Jesus promised that individuals who are pure in their commitment to God will see him. This uncovers a surprising thought regarding God’s kingdom. Most Jews would have learned, at an early age, that no one can see God and live; for he is holy. However, Jesus says that the individuals who get into heaven will see God.

Matt 5:8

God blesses those whose hearts are pure, for they will see God.

Open the eyes of my heart, Lord
Open the eyes of my heart
I want to see You
I want to see You

To see you high and lifted up

Shining in the light of Your glory

Pour out Your power and love

As we sing holy, holy, holy

Holy, holy, holy

Holy, holy, holy
You are Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy (I want to see You)
You are holy, Lord
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy (I want to see You)

6-30-22 Hard stuff

 Lord I feel stuck in my emotions - my back hurts and I keep thinking of all the way that Vicki, Brenna I have accused them of rejecting me. Lord I have hated them. That is not how you responded to rejection. You responded in love. In forgiveness. Lord I want to reject those who reject me. I want to hurt those who hurt me or that I perceive have hurt or offended me. Lord I am angry and afraid. Will you speak to me? Will you please show me what to do? I feel so trapped and miserable. I want out of this cage of bitterness. 


"Forgive your dad"


Lord I forgive my dad for not being an example of an authority that protects and instead being selfish and abandoning me. Lord I forgive him for not being there for me or for my mom. I forgive him for the ways he abused me mentally, emotionally and even if he physically did and I don't remember. Lord I forgive him for the fear and anger and control and the ways he manipulated me with money. Lord I trust you with my heart - please heal it where I am broken and desperate for a father's love and care. Lord I'm sorry for running to these other things for satisfaction and peace. Groceries, friends, guys, pride, accomplishment, looks - all of these things won't satisfy. Lord I forgive him freely and totally - cancel his debt against me Lord I forgive him TOTALLY. I give you the hurt I feel by his absence - I ask that you would use these things that the enemy meant for evil and turn them around and use them for good. Lord I give you the pain of my loneliness, the rejection, the desire for love and affection, my broken heart. Lord I release him from my expectations of being a good dad - he is a broken man who needs you. Please give me your compassion for him and to see him through your eyes. Lord I trust you. I release him to you - he is not mine - he is yours. Please fill that void in me that I wanted him to fill. Lord he has fallen short - he is just a man. I'm sorry for the ways I have idolized him and wanted him to be everything and wanted to be like him. Lord you are my real dad - help me to want you to be my everything and to be like you. Lord I'm sorry for being unmerciful, bitter and unkind towards him. Soften my heart. Please give me a heart that longs to love. Fill me up with your desires and the way you view things. Help me to let him go into your loving hands. Lord I give up control - I ask that you would send laborers to him - convict him - make his sin like dust in his mouth - dissatisfy him with the world and deliver him from the evil one. Lord I surrender - take over. Take the wheel with my dad and with my life. I forgive him TOTALLY. All of it - anything he has done - I give it to you - I forgive him - he is free of debt to me. Lord will you fill me up with your love?


"one step at a time"

"I need to empty you so I can fill you"



6/29/22

 Thankful!

Lord, I've been distracted this morning trying to get what I want - yogurt strainer/crockpot. Lord I'm sorry for trying to do whatever I want and researching recipes for the whey water instead of working. Lord I'm sorry for wasting my employer's time by getting distracted. Will you please forgive me and help me to work in honor and not get on my email / research things / amazon. Help me to be fully present and available. I ask for your grace to pray and for your help with the dinner and dessert on Friday. Please God, I'm sorry for worrying about the meal, dessert, bread, taters, chairs, place to go - please help me to turn this over to you. Lord the most important thing is the fellowship with your Spirit and inviting my friends into this LOVE that you have for them by loving them and being hospitable. It doesn't matter if the meal or anything is perfect you just want my heart. Please Lord I'm sorry for working without you. Please forgive me and help me to trust you with ALL of my heart soul mind and strength today. Lord I give it all to you. I give you all my worries and fears about the future and the time with my mom tonight - I ask for your peace and your help to love her well. Please Lord be present in our time and please help her to be willing to get groceries and please help me to let go and to love her well. Lord I surrender this work day to you - please help me to be present - help me with client scans and welcoming people and with time with my mom and with you tonight. I ask that you would help me to fellowship with your Spirit today and that you would put people on my heart to pray for. Please help me to pray for the elders and to love them Lord. Will you deliver me from overthinking and turning inward and towards selfish ambition - I lay my plans before you - please use me as you want to - Please help me not to cling so tightly to plans I give it up to you Lord please use me, please help me to trust you.  

Thursday, June 23, 2022

He said 6-23-22

 "They want you back"

"They are praying for you"

"They want you to change"

"They have forgiven you"

"They love you"

"They are on your side"

"Follow my Lead"

"They have not forgotten you"

"You are precious to me and precious to them"

"You are not forgotten"

"They know this is best for you"

"They didn't want this to happen"


Seek and you will find. Help me Lord to trust them and help me to love you and love them.

"you are my delight"

"I want to shower and pour my affection on you"

"You are NOT alone"

Only Love Remains

 Only Love Remains


Scenes of you come rushing through
You are breaking me down
So break me into pieces
That will grow in the ground
I know that I deserve to die
For the murder in my heart
So be gentle with me Jesus
As you tear me apart
Please kill the liar
Kill the thief in me
You know that I am tired of their cruelty
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains
You burn away the ropes that bind
And hold me to the earth
The fire only leaves behind whatever is of worth
I begin to see reality
For the first time in my life
I know that I'm a shadow
But I'm dancing in your light
Teach me to be humble
Call me from the grave
Show me how to walk with you upon the waves
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains



Prayer for Unity
By Emma Danzey

Colossians 3:14 says, “And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.”

Hearing about the divisions, hatred, and evil in this world causes heartbreak and high anxiety. It stirs up anger and confusion and brings us to our knees over the sin in this world. As believers in Jesus, we are to seek unity through Christ. We do this by putting on love. Among our own churches and in the ways that we live, others will see the beauty and the oneness of the family of God, all are welcome to come.

Today’s verse emphasizes putting on love. In a culture that has much hate and hurtful actions toward one another, we can stand out for Christ in the ways that we love. This is not a love that comes from our own might, but the perfect love from the Spirit of God that pours out onto others. By the words and actions through the power of the Holy Spirit, we can show the perfect love of Jesus to this hurting and broken world.

Let's Pray:

Our Loving Savior,
We acknowledge today that we are incapable of perfectly loving others. It is only through the help of your Spirit that we can live in this way. You have sacrificed yourself for our sins when we were your enemies and you brought us into your family. We boldly ask that you would give us the kind of powerful compassion on those who are our enemies on this earth. We pray for those who persecute us, we pray for those who belittle and humiliate us, we pray for those who are living out sin and violently hurting the innocent. Lord, give us strength to model You even in these kinds of situations. 

God would you help Your people to live like the believers in the early church. Acts 4:32 says, “All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of their possessions was their own, but they shared everything they had.” Empower us to genuinely care for the needs of our brothers and sisters. Open our eyes to those You have placed around us to encourage and walk with in life. Help us to be selfless so that we can share what You have entrusted to us. Give us the ability to be one in heart and mind. The enemy is after the people of God and desires to divide and cause confusion, Jesus help us to be united in You. Help us to stand firm on the truth of Your gospel and be dedicated to Your Holy Word. Thank you for the victories that You are providing and will provide for us.Galatians 3:28 says, “There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.” Creator God, You have made all people in Your image. We pray against prejudices and against pride. Help us to see others as You do. Help us to remember that Jesus gives an even playing field to all. We are all sinners in need of a Savior and You have paid the cost. Give us your loving and caring attitude for those who are different from us, and help us find common ground at the cross. Help us to invite all people to hear the good news of salvation through Jesus alone.

Wednesday, June 22, 2022

6-22-22

 The 2% yogurt I made today didn't work. I believe the Lord told me to "wait" before trying again with whole milk. I believe he may want to change my heart about making it. 

Deny self - my plans, wants, dreams, desires - INSTEAD - Seek the Lord for His plans, wants, dreams, desires - Jesus' spirit living through me - HIS life. He is WORTHY and He is enough for me. I want to live like Jesus and everything in this world is like cheap trash compared to Him. 

I want to experience His beauty - for Him to speak to me through songs and touch my heart through the Holy Spirit. I want to be wholehearted. To fast and pray and experience more of Him.

Devo about running to God instead of hiding in shame - I did this the night after I talked to MP and I was ashamed bc it was so clearly not what the Lord wanted.

MERCY - Receiving mercy from Joy yesterday with not answering the text right away, mercy for anger towards Jack Heckscher client, mercy from Ahna for scratching her dutch oven after she had warned me, mercy from Jesus after He told me to guard my heart and I poured out my heart to MP. I have been forgiven! No shame! It's washed away!

It's a new day!


To embrace God's grace and mercy

Prayer to Embrace God’s Grace and Mercy
By Tiffany Curtis

“For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” - Hebrews 4:15-16

Overall, I was a pretty good kid growing up (and yes, my parents would actually attest to that!). But on the occasions where I found myself in the wrong – whether on accident or not – my first instinct was to hide. 

A vivid memory remains in my mind of the time my sister went to see The Nutcracker ballet, and proudly brought home a large, fully wax, nutcracker candle souvenir. One night, as I sat at the foot of her bed admiring the nutcracker candle, I picked a little piece of wax away with my tiny fingernail. Before I knew it, I was sitting with a pile of wax shavings in front of me, and a very sad, very unrecognizable nutcracker in my hands. I was caught in the act, and there was no hiding what I had done.

There was no ill will in me destroying this treasured souvenir, and my parents knew this. But when it came time for me to take accountability for what I had done, that’s when I tried to hide. The evidence was, literally, all over my hands as I looked my parents in the eyes and told them it “wasn’t me” who did it. Oh, and by the way, my sister and I are their only children. You can imagine the smirks as my parents undoubtedly thought to themselves… “who else would have done it?” My shame overtook me and caused me to hide from my problems rather than confess and be free of them. Desperately trying to cover up and refuse to admit to it only made my shame, and the situation itself, so much worse.

Hebrews 15 tells us that Christ empathizes with our weaknesses. He gets it. He walked through the same temptations that we face, but our hope is found in this: He did not sin. And this was not done so that he could sit back and say, “Shame on you - if I can do it, anyone can!” No – He lived the perfect life so that His mercy and grace could be freely extended to us when we falter.

It is our job, then, to approach God’s throne with confidence. This isn’t always easy when we’re natural hiders! But God assures us that in our time of need, He is more than ready to help us. So, boldly embrace God’s grace and mercy today. Humbly accept His help. Rest in His empathy – He loves us and truly desires for us to let go of shame and live in His presence.

Let’s Pray:

Lord Jesus,
Thank you for the grace and mercy you extend to us. Our sinful nature tells us to sit in our shame and to hide from your light. But you came to this earth and lived the perfect life so that we no longer need to be shackled by our sins. True freedom is found when we lay down our pride and bring our weaknesses to you. 

In Jesus’ Name,
Amen.


Keep your calendar in your car. I want to help you. You are not doing this list for me but with me. I want to guide your life Kristina. You don't call the shots, I do. This is for your good, your benefit. 

6-21-22

 Psalm 131 - Eyes are not proud / "the moment you humbled yourself before me, I heard you"

Psalm 119 - comfort in suffering - His Word / His promise 

Psalm 136 - his love endures forever

Wednesday, June 15, 2022

Prove it 6-15-22

 Prove it


I asked for forgiveness for not making time to do the things he asked me to do (3x5 notecards) and not spending more time with Him so now I am going to prove it by skipping getting dinner out and running and waiting to get the Panera Sips tomorrow, I am going to go home and work on dinner then spend that time with the Lord tonight.  He will meet with me when I make time for Him. 

June 15


When God measures a man, He puts the tape measure around his heart, not his head.

The Lord sees not as man sees; man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.
1 Samuel 16:7     

Lord, what a joy that You do not see as man sees and that Your measuring is perfect.






Tuesday, June 14, 2022

Today 6-14-22

 Lord I'm sorry for being unloving and wanting others to love me instead of loving them

I'm sorry for wanting you for what you can give to me instead of for you

I'm sorry for not loving others for your sake

I'm sorry for trying to figure things out on my own instead of trusting you and worrying

Lord forgive me and help me to trust that you love me, the Abigail loves me and to be secure in you. Help me to love others from a place of knowing I am loved by you. Please help me to encourage others tonight Lord and to obey you.

I'm sorry for making "fun" a god. Help me to follow you. 

Monday, June 13, 2022

Deliberately rememeber

 When I was praying and asking God how to pray for the Abigail this morning you brought the phrase "BIND US TOGETHER IN LOVE" and the song by Laura Hackett "Love makes us strong"

https://youtu.be/gs7XZmMlrSA

love-makes-us-strong-laura-hackett-park.pdf (soarworship.com)




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Feedback from a client about bday card - showed me that people can be offended if not loved in the way they want it. Even though a person (Amanda) is sincerely trying to go above and beyond. It can feel defeating and like - why even try? - when someone is so easily offended. I can be like this with the Abigail when they try sincerely to love me and I am offended by things bc it isn't done the way I want. It's not that they aren't loving me it's that I'm not getting it to the way I want it and I'm OFFENDED because I am proud and conceited and making it all about me. Just like this client is offended that we sent them a bday card and it wasn't at the right address/not signed by an individual signature. It can seem ridiculous on the other end and make you feel like giving up. This is how I have treated my house. 

From: Sweetman Properties Group <sweetmanpropertiesgroup@gmail.com>
Sent: Thursday, June 9, 2022 7:39 PM
To: Steve King <sking@wqcorp.com>
Subject: birthday card

 

A very funny birthday card came to our house.

The card was to Patrick, would you believe nobody signed it.?

If that went to a different client they might have been upset about that.

Of course Patrick's in Argentina so we just told him you all wished him a happy b'day.

Just a note to help all businesses grow.

 

--

Paul Sweetman

Sweetman properties Group llc

(513) 383-1713 


From Amanda: Thanks for the feedback! I usually google a message and sign it from the Wealthquest team.  (I’m sure you’ve seen) Maybe your right. They don’t like “from your team at Wealthquest”?

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June 13


Sincerity is not guidance. Sincerity may say, “I am sure this plane goes to New York.” You believe this sincerely, but the plane will go to Miami if it is scheduled for Miami, and your sincerity will do nothing to change that!

There is a way which seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death.
Proverbs 14:12    

Father, we often sincerely believe we are doing right, even if we are wrong. Give us wisdom through Your Holy Spirit. Guide us so that we do Your will, not ours.

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Lord, I am sincere in this wrong belief but I am wrong. Help me to trust you and trust my sisters. Help me to overcome this accusation and offense and making things about me. Lord I repent! I'm overthinking this. I'm wrong. Praise God I'm wrong! My sisters love me. I am proud and offended. Please help me to be humble Lord. Give me the same mindset as Christ Jesus. 




Colossians 3:14 And over all these virtues put on love, which is the bond of perfect unity. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony.






Thank you that even though you see all my sin - you don't condemn me. You accept me and give me what Jesus did. This sin is not too big for you - you can help me overcome. You can right these relationships. You can purify me. You can help me. You are FAITHFUL. YOU are big enough. Lord Please help me today = this morning to overcome accusations in my thoughts Lord!!

Friday, June 10, 2022

Camping

 This is not my home!


' God blesses those who are humble, for they will inherit the whole earth. ' Matthew 5:5


I want the best for you Kristina. Feeding on these cheaper things is just a delusion - a lie. I have greater things in store for you if you let me do it.

Lord what about the Abigail?

Have you been praying for them?

Sorta - mostly praying to repent of accusation towards them.

That is your answer. Pray for your sisters. Seek their best in the secret place and you will change from the inside out. I don't have judgement in store if you repent of your sins. No one can take you away from me. Not even these fractured relationships. Learn how to love from me - not a book. I want to teach you.


'And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others?

Do not even pagans do that? If you love those who love you, what reward will you get?

Are not even the tax collectors doing that? that you may be children of your Father in heaven.

He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and

the unrighteous. But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, '

Matt 5:44-47


Thursday, June 9, 2022

Today 6-9-22

 Ps 111

'Praise the Lord ! I will thank the Lord with all my heart as I meet with his godly people.

How amazing are the deeds of the Lord ! All who delight in him should ponder them.

Everything he does reveals his glory and majesty. His righteousness never fails.

He causes us to remember his wonderful works. How gracious and merciful is our Lord ! ' Psalms 111:1-4


Lord help me to DELIBERATELY REMEMBER your faithfulness today.


Dear friends, this is now my second letter to you. I have written both of them as reminders to stimulate you to wholesome thinking. I want you to recall the words spoken in the past by the holy prophets and the command given by our Lord and Savior through your apostles.

Above all, you must understand that in the last days scoffers will come, scoffing and following their own evil desires. They will say, “Where is this ‘coming’ he promised? Ever since our ancestors died, everything goes on as it has since the beginning of creation.” But they deliberately forget that long ago by God’s word the heavens came into being and the earth was formed out of water and by water. By these waters also the world of that time was deluged and destroyed. By the same word the present heavens and earth are reserved for fire, being kept for the day of judgment and destruction of the ungodly.

But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.

10 But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything done in it will be laid bare.[a]

11 Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives 12 as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming.[b] That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat. 13 But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, where righteousness dwells.

14 So then, dear friends, since you are looking forward to this, make every effort to be found spotless, blameless and at peace with him. 15 Bear in mind that our Lord’s patience means salvation, just as our dear brother Paul also wrote you with the wisdom that God gave him. 16 He writes the same way in all his letters, speaking in them of these matters. His letters contain some things that are hard to understand, which ignorant and unstable people distort, as they do the other Scriptures, to their own destruction.

17 Therefore, dear friends, since you have been forewarned, be on your guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of the lawless and fall from your secure position. 18 But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.


Ps 107

1Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good!
His faithful love endures forever.
2Has the Lord redeemed you? Then speak out!
Tell others he has redeemed you from your enemies.
3For he has gathered the exiles from many lands,
from east and west,
from north and south.107:3 Hebrew and sea.
4Some wandered in the wilderness,
lost and homeless.
5Hungry and thirsty,
they nearly died.
6Lord, help!” they cried in their trouble,
and he rescued them from their distress.
7He led them straight to safety,
to a city where they could live.
8Let them praise the Lord for his great love
and for the wonderful things he has done for them.
9For he satisfies the thirsty
and fills the hungry with good things.
10Some sat in darkness and deepest gloom,
imprisoned in iron chains of misery.
11They rebelled against the words of God,
scorning the counsel of the Most High.
12That is why he broke them with hard labor;
they fell, and no one was there to help them.
13Lord, help!” they cried in their trouble,
and he saved them from their distress.
14He led them from the darkness and deepest gloom;
he snapped their chains.
15Let them praise the Lord for his great love
and for the wonderful things he has done for them.
16For he broke down their prison gates of bronze;
he cut apart their bars of iron.
17Some were fools; they rebelled
and suffered for their sins.
18They couldn’t stand the thought of food,
and they were knocking on death’s door.
19Lord, help!” they cried in their trouble,
and he saved them from their distress.
20He sent out his word and healed them,
snatching them from the door of death.
21Let them praise the Lord for his great love
and for the wonderful things he has done for them.
22Let them offer sacrifices of thanksgiving
and sing joyfully about his glorious acts.
23Some went off to sea in ships,
plying the trade routes of the world.
24They, too, observed the Lord’s power in action,
his impressive works on the deepest seas.
25He spoke, and the winds rose,
stirring up the waves.
26Their ships were tossed to the heavens
and plunged again to the depths;
the sailors cringed in terror.
27They reeled and staggered like drunkards
and were at their wits’ end.
28Lord, help!” they cried in their trouble,
and he saved them from their distress.
29He calmed the storm to a whisper
and stilled the waves.
30What a blessing was that stillness
as he brought them safely into harbor!
31Let them praise the Lord for his great love
and for the wonderful things he has done for them.
32Let them exalt him publicly before the congregation
and before the leaders of the nation.
33He changes rivers into deserts,
and springs of water into dry, thirsty land.
34He turns the fruitful land into salty wastelands,
because of the wickedness of those who live there.
35But he also turns deserts into pools of water,
the dry land into springs of water.
36He brings the hungry to settle there
and to build their cities.
37They sow their fields, plant their vineyards,
and harvest their bumper crops.
38How he blesses them!
They raise large families there,
and their herds of livestock increase.
39When they decrease in number and become impoverished
through oppression, trouble, and sorrow,
40the Lord pours contempt on their princes,
causing them to wander in trackless wastelands.
41But he rescues the poor from trouble
and increases their families like flocks of sheep.
42The godly will see these things and be glad,
while the wicked are struck silent.
43Those who are wise will take all this to heart;

they will see in our history the faithful love of the Lord.

June 9

As you submit to God’s guidance, you will find that He has taken the incentive in your life, adjusting and rearranging where you have been off the track. You will never find His demands to be greater than that which you can accomplish in His power.

I was not ever thus,
nor prayed that Thou
shouldst lead me on
I loved to choose
and see my path
but now
lead Thou me on
—John H. Newman

Where there is no guidance, a people falls . . .
Proverbs 11:14    

Father, forgive my past willfulness and be my guide.

Lead, Kindly Light

Lead, kindly light, amidst the grey and gloom
The night is long and I am far from home
Here in the dark, I do not ask to see
The path ahead--one step enough for me
Lead on, lead on, kindly light.
I was not ever willing to be led
I could have stayed, but I ran instead
In spite of fear, I followed my pride
My eyes could see, but my heart was blind
Lead on, lead on, kindly light.

And in the night, when I was afraid
Your feet beside my own on the way
Each stumbling step where other men have trod
Shortens the road leading home to my God
Lead on, lead on,
My God, my God,
Lead on, lead on, kindly light.

Deliberately remember: (just in the past 3 days!)

How you helped me when I cried out to you when I was overwhelmed by accusations

How you helped me when I cried out to you the next day with violent back pain and swallowing fear in the morning when I was having accusations

How you helped me this morning when I asked you when I was sooo tired and accusing

How you helped me to return the items from my dad - with kindness and not anger/bitterness

How you helped me to humble myself in front of the whole church and then helped me with fear about it afterwards

How you helped me with guitar and playing during a prayer slot

How you helped me repent of envy/comparison of T&T last night and forgave me

You helped me during the prayer meeting when I was accusing others not to act out of my emotions - confessing it as sin to Jen

I am FORGIVEN. You told me that I am forgiven! I listened to Psalm 103 about what you are like and you are forgiving

You helped me not to compromise with caffeine and the tea and to throw out the caffeine packets

You led me to take a shower - a good choice - you led me with what to play on the guitar

You helped me to remember the truth and reminded me of trying to explain to someone else what I am thinking and repenting of narcissisms

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You helped me to stop fighting Brian and Brandie

You helped me overcome fear with meetings with them

You spoke to me about it

You helped me this morning with the scanning for Amanda




Praise the Lord for YOUR GREAT LOVE and the wonderful things you have done for me!!!

I see the history of the faithful love of the LORD



Talk about Mcneeleys

You need me, not them. I want you to love those around you not use them as your life supply